back on the rock.

So, I've been back here for just over 3 weeks. My daily planner has been chock a block with appointments and lunches and parties. Its been nice to meet some people again and catch up on life with them. Its a convenient thing about the smallness of our nation that it is relatively easy to organize a meeting with a few old friends relatively simply.

I have also been crudely reminded of the things I despise. The social pressures, the common ignoramus, the self-instated celebrities - they are all still here. People haven't changed really. I was only gone for 6 weeks so granted I cant expect the nation to completely change, but I believe I have changed or grown a little bit. I've realized what quality of life I want for myself, and what kind of person I want to be. I realize how hard I am on myself and the number of ridiculous rules that I apply to my life here just because of what I feel society pressures me to do. At the end of the day, trips abroad into societies where I am a foreigner gives me that fresh page - that blank canvas on which I can see myself and trim away at the bull that has been accumulated over the months of living in an overcrowded rock. At which point I can start to see myself as the true me and work on myself as a person - socially, spiritually, sexually, economically, physically, mentally. Self growth is so important. It allows the person to become who they are in essence. Some people need distance from the familiar to do this, such as my self. Cos within the familiar - we feel comfortable and this causes us to be lazy and hence - not do anything and never change anything.

Change is good. Cant wait for change soon.